I've come to realised that as time passes by, I tend to show my emotions more. When I'm angry, I have the tendency to express it, be it in form of actions or words. Doubt I would have done this months ago. People who can't get use to it will think I have suffered terrible PMS. Oh well. But I prefer it this way, than to keep everything to myself. I am who I am. Deal with it.
I cant help but feel irritated by the fact that someone is jealous of me. It's not 'envy' we are talking here. Due to this incident, I just feel so bitchy to complain to people. But I just can't contain this stupid issue within me. Bear with me.
We were each other's strength of support, each other's motivation. Yet when he came into her life, he took her away from me. I was left there alone. Without her, I began to mix with the rest. We may not be as close as how I was with her, but were very friendly and much more happening. They invite me to outings and welcome me.
When he left you, you came back to me. Filled with questions, like why aren't you as 'popular' as me? I was never 'popular' in the first place. Instead of asking why they talk to me instead of you, try asking yourself why aren't you talking to them? You get angry that I got more attention than you. For what? A simple reason to your
question - I was with them during the period you left me. I mixed with different groups, thus knowing more people. Is that my fault? And I have come to understand that when you lose something, you gain back something. And I have gotten a lot of new friendships.
People praise me. And you are unhappy. You felt that it was unfair. Unfair that the compliments are only for me. You felt that we are of same level, or even more. Instead of complaining, why can't just do something to make yourself get the attention you desire? I rather you be in the limelight, as I prefer to be more low profile.
Anyway my
glam's over.
We can go back to our year one life, where nobody notice my
existence, and end your jealousy.
Hopefully.
Provided your mindset change.
