2c worth

In the past when I was still the president of the orchestra, I always hear seniors telling me, "Think how to retain the alumni. How to give them a sense of belonging. Same for our juniors. They are as important."

I was like, dude. How can I find that sense of belonging when me myself don't have the slightest feeling. I had wanted to quit when I was year 1. But Nurul held me back, telling me it's once a lifetime chance to perform in the Esplanade. True, I thought, and stayed on (Nurul darl it's not your fault for asking me to stay on. Really =) I choose this myself). Followed by that is the Annual Concert. As tempting. Finally, I thought my moment came but, to my surprise I was choosen as a committee. Hey, why not just give myself a chance and try? What I had never expect was that I was chosen as the President. Wow relax people... Why such a "cool" post? Thinking that poly was, hmmm, peanut case (well, at that moment), I took up that post as a challenge for myself. Heck, so I'm stuck to CO for another 1 year with more problems. Shall not elaborate on the hell time. Not too good for health. I'm glad Nurul was able to break free early.

Well overall it's still not bad, removing the bad times. Annual Concert was great at the end (I think). Now I'm finally done.

Self delcare step down. Who still wants me there? LOL. They never update me on the process. Hah~ At least I have reason to heck care. Do they need my help? Anyway I doubt I'm able.

Seriously my "sense of belonging" in CO is 0% (maybe it's -10%?). HongKong trip? Byebye~ I can't play well, I can't make it for pract. I can't give myself any reason to join. Oh well, I think Mr Conductor rather I don't go. Haha.